Hamilton Fish Armstrong, ed. The Book of New York Verse. 1917.
Old TrailsEdwin Arlington Robinson
I
Between the gray Arch and the old Hotel.
“King Solomon was right, there’s nothing new,”
Said he. “Behold a ruin who meant well.”
Appealingly, and set me in a chair.
“My dreams have all come true to other men,”
Said he; “God lives, however, and why care?
He laughed, and something glad within me sank.
I may have eyed him with a faint alarm,
For now his laugh was lost in what he drank.
“I might have known it.” And he made a face
That showed again how much of him was dead,
And how much was alive and out of place,
That all the words of wise men who are skilled
In using them are not so much to defy
What comes when memory meets the unfulfilled.
Had been at work with him to bring him back?
Never among the ghosts, assuredly,
Would he originate a new attack;
Till what was dead of him was put away,
Would he attain to his offended share
Of honour among others of his day.
“You always did, and here you have a cause.
For I’m a confirmation of the past,
A vengeance, and a flowering of what was.
With even your most impenetrable fears,
A placid and a proper consciousness
Of anxious angels over my arrears.
As large as hope, in ink that shines by night.
For sure I see; but now I’d rather look
At you, and you are not a pleasant sight.
And on my conscience. I’ve an incubus:
My one distinction, and a parlous toll
To glory; but hope lives on clamorous.
The kind that blinks and rises when it falls,
Whether it sees a reason why or not—
That heard Broadway’s hard-throated siren-calls;
To shores again where I’ll not have to be
A lonely man with only foreign worms
To cheer him in his last obscurity.
To be among the ghosts, I leave to you.
My thanks are yours, no less, for one thing clear:
Though you are silent what you say is true.
For down I blundered like a fugitive,
To find the old room in Eleventh Street.
God save us!—I came here again to live.”
And followed us unseen to his old room.
No longer a good place for living men
We found it, and we shivered in the gloom.
And soon we found ourselves outside once more,
Where now the lights along the Avenue
Bloomed white for miles above an iron floor.
He said, “and let your spleen be undeceived:
This ruin is not myself, but someone else;
I haven’t failed; I’ve merely not achieved.”
With more of an immune regardlessness
Of pits before him and of sands behind
Than many a child at forty would confess;
Their tumult at the Metropolitan,
He rocked himself, and I believe he sang.
“God lives,” he crooned aloud, “and I’m the man!”
All prophecies, I cherish his acclaim.
Three weeks he fattened; and five years he toiled
In Yonkers,—and then sauntered into fame.
Eleventh, or the last, and little care;
But he would find the old room very still
Of evenings, and the ghosts would all be there.
If many of them ever come to him.
His memories are like lamps, and they go out;
Or if they burn, they flicker and are dim.
And adulations of applauding hosts;
A famous danger, but a safer way
Than growing old alone among the ghosts.
He fooled us, and we’d shrivel to deny it;
Though sometimes when old echoes ring too long,
I wish the bells in Boris would be quiet.